Serenti's Blog

Right now I am not very praud of being from Sweden... Seriously. A new program started airing here today with the title "Help, I survived a Japanese tv-show!" and I think that speaks for itself. ( I know that USA had something like this awhile ago but this shit made my cry on the inside.

Really... We sent nine (I didn't acctually count, but I believe they were nine... ) of out 'best' swedish stars or what the hell you want to call them, but acctually I am not very fond of any of our representants... and the programm leader is a class of her own...anyway it started with that they talked about how exited they were and god knows what, and then they tried to talk japanese since they had to 'learn' the language. Okay, I am NOT learning japanese myself (yet, I'll after summer *w*) but even I could tell how utterly wrong they where... I mean "Arrrrrrrrrigatoooooooooooooooooo" not to mention that they seconds later traveled on a boat and practically screamed:

"OMFG!!! Skyscrapes!!!" for ten minutes, and then there were another five minutes with the swedish program leader appearing in a race boat and f*ck*ng posed like she was a porn star... with clothes... for FIVE minutes. I shit you not people, this is the freaking truth.

Then it took them 15 mintutes to eat and give the tv director presents. And well.. I lost count on how many times I face palmed when they talked about the food... or when they offered their gifts, the other more emberassing than the other. Hell, 'Anna Book' gave him a CD there she instructed people hoe to dance... SERIOUSLY!!

And then they dissed people.... just because they thought noone understood them... But I smyabe shouldn't yell to much on them since the japaneses also dissed us... (WAIT US?!!)

Anyway, I gave up before the competition actually started since they practically stupidify the entire japan and made it appear like the entire country had come crashing down from another planet. I am no longer suprised that people look down at us anime/manga geeks... it kind of reminded me of this years SakuraCon commercial... just much... much worse...

just to show every single one of you that the program leader doesn't seem to be interested in nothing more than getting laid I give you the link to the official webbsite.... (in Swedish...) Be sure to look out for videos named 'Gynning'... I just love that girl.... she just makes me want to smash my head into the closest wall.... isn't she lovely?

http://www.tv4.se/1.283438?videoId=1.917339&renderingdepartment=2.33114

and don't miss the clipp named "Carolina Gynnings Videodagbok del 1" clipp, the best EVER where my loved Gynning tells all of us what she has in her bag... for 3 and a half minute....

and the SakuraCon 09 comercial... just for the sake of it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP5lz2CYNR4

I am back on step one, yeah you heard me right I weren't in school today. Reason? I woke up in good time, got dressed grabbed my belongings and went downstairs. The rest of my family had already left the house which is nothing out of odinary on Thursdays. So I prepered my morning tea and sat down in front of he table and looked down on the liquid. And suddenly I just started crying. I think I cried for atleast one hour straight... then I went ouyt to my rabbit and cuddled a bit for another hour. Do I have to say how much I love him? Seriously for once he jus laid there in my lap and looked cute, and every now and then he would lick or nudge my hand.

Anyway, I have no idea why I started crying from the sight of tea, but I guess I was at my limit. I was about to cry yesterday on my training aswell but somehow managed to stay calm... yeah I know I promised to not stay home from school anymore but how am I supposed to go to school crying? I just...I just.... don't know. The period started two weeks ago, so this isn't looking very promising... Right now I am listening to Koji's "Answer" and I am a little happier... I think I have made that song my official 'feel good' song by now XD

...but seriously, tears are still occasionally falling down my face so I think i'll go back to sleep now or something. Or eat a lot of candy...

"You said, the question is, for what purpose do we do our best?"

I have been wondering if people really care about the future at all. No, I am not talking about the global warming or anything like that. No, I am talking about some people that seems completely uninterested in anything else than playing around. Yeah, I know that I sound a bit old but I beacause I have a very tight shedule I am practically forced to plan each day out to make it work with school and sport and so on.

Like today when my teacher was sick and the lession got canceled. I took the time until the next lession to study since I am not going to be home before 22 today. If I dont have to stay up until midnight and study for the test tomorrow I dont see a problem with it. But ofcourse everyone else rolled their eyes and so on. Fine if they find it more interesting to chit-chat about the dress you weared on the schoolbal one year ago but seriously, dont bugg me about that it's boring to study when you asked me about information about the test three minutes ago. I dont really enjoy to study aswell but I know what I have to do to not fail a subject and I does it and that's it. Exuse me that I dont have ro much freetime as everyone else seems to have.

Lately I don't know what I want anymore. Seriously spoken I have no idea. I have already choosed which high school I am attending to and I have seen been there for like half a year, but it just don’t feel right. So I and a friend visited another school today, and it was probably one of the most stupid things I have ever done.

That school is a form of continuation from the last one I attended too and all just came back to me. I am more confused than I was before I and definitely don’t know where I should spend my high school years anymore, and it’s starting to get a bit to late to change school…

But the problem is I don’t like my current school very much, the teachers aren’t the best and I just don’t like the system at all. But I don’t know if it I’ll be better if I change. I just don’t know what to do anymore…

Changing school would mean a lot of extra work and attempts to try and catch up to what I have missed, but spend ding three more years depressed since this school doesn’t fit me? And I don’t even know if I’ll fit in the new one either. Seriously I just want to go back to my last school and stay with my beloved teachers and SUFF, Seriously, SUFF, I miss all of you so freaking much. And that’s another problem, I don’t know why I liked my old school anymore. Was it because of he system? The teachers? My friends?

Neither my friends or my teacher will b e there so it won’t be the same, but did I really like the other system so much or will it get will it get worse? I just don’t know and it’s driving my insane.

I am deeply sorry for my pointless rambling, but I really needed to clear my head a bit…

Yeah, here I am again making a post from my cell phone out of pure boredom, sue me...or not xD

Lately it feels like I am comming nowhere regardless of ny effort. Seriously spooken it feels like I am reaching ny limit at a frigthening speed. The reason to this is probably because to the fact that I have been sick the three first days of the week, and for some unknown reason my teachers had decided to start a project about China and while i was laying in mw bed unable to move (I am speaking the truth, I werent even able to watch a few episodes the first days and it was with a lot of willpower I succedded to attend to school, just to be aware of how much I had missed, and of course I got very stressed in my attempt to catch up to the others in my class, and that we got back the english test yesterday and i was exactly one point from getting the highest grade. ONE freaking point! Do you guys understand my frustration?

Anyway, I have quite a lot to do this weekend. Mainly because I have competitions the entire weekend which means that I wont have any time over to the freaking essay about China and it stresses me even more.

I guess there is no other way around than just follow the flow which probably will result in a quickly done essay, which isn't very good at all since our teachers have told us that this project is very important for the end grade in four subjects... I don't like were this is leading at all... Can you understand why? xD

Anime Relations: Tennis no Oujisama

Hello guys!
Long time no seen, and I really mean it. I have been kind of busy lately which can easily been seen on most of the website I am member on. Especially on MAL where I have started to post around one post every day, which is kind of a new record for me. I haven’t watched very much either. The main reason is that my comp have broken down and I am trying to live on without it but there is also the fact that my teachers is practically drowning us in homework.

Anyway, next week it’s time for my long awaited autumn vacation. From the beginning I was planning to watch a lot of anime during the vacation and finally be up to date with prince of tennis. Sadly I played Flyff again a few days ago since my sister needed my help… and well, once again I found myself struck in the game. I don’t have any time to play right now since I have so much to do in school, but my vacation will probably disappear inside Flyff… why not catch me there? If you’re on the aibatt server jus try to add Keyaki or ChibiChan every now and then and I am sure that you sooner or later will get a reply, at least when I am online, which I’ll be pretty often. I don’t know what will happen with my marathon plans, but I guess they’ll go up in smoke since I am not very fond of multi-tasking when it comes down to watching stuff. Either way I have promised to rewatch all of the Tenipuri Musicals which I am going to do, AND I’ll sing with them every song and drive my little sister completely insane…. Whatever, I am going to tell you the main reason for this completely useless post. My computer broke down and I have lived without it for a long while, and now it’s back <33

Somehow I managed to go very off topic and start to tell you all of my goals for next week… I guess I am just really looking forward to my vacation. I am completely burned out and is looking forward to a week of laziness, with a LOT of gaming and no school whatsoever*w*